Hey guys! I have been having this little blog thing pop up from time to time asking for attention. I suppose it is only fair to explain where I am at now from where I was coming from and also where I am going. And I’m going to attempt to squish it all into a smaller amount than the words that would be required to explain in full detail! 😀 Anyways, sometime in India, around the time I went to see the Dalai Lama I decided not to write my blog anymore. I was having issues with not being present and thinking “ah that would make a great picture for my blog” and “ah i should write about this in my blog” and “ah blog and blog this and blog that” and I did not want to live for the blog.
Now I am supposing it is still nice to share and there is also the handful that need to see something happening for them to go do it themselves, if they want to. I am sure you are not this person ;D Anyhow! The post is here and there are some cool things going on right now! I will start with my trip finishing up in India.
It finished. I went to Rishikesh and became very sick with some sort of bronchital inflammation/infection but I just kept rocking it out anyways. I was awake at 4-5 am and doing yoga in an ashram eating their very basic but fulfilling meals and going through the life of an ashram (oh boy they did not like me with my cough…but i was in the yoga capital of the world and i do have to exist somewhere still so i figured i should be where i want!) I would sneak away and go eat my little chocolate croissant and chai tea at the German bakery down the road after the ashram events were over, although I didn’t consider it sneaking. It was just that the very egotistical stereotypical types of “i am enlightened do as i do or i dont like you” and I was like nahhh ima flow. and also love unconditionally. but you know o.o not my place to get into that with these people. We all come from the same but have just different experiences. glad for the experience and I love them all the same. anyways! the view! It was just so wonderful overlooking the Ganges (Gan-Guh) River and sipping chai. Then I rolled back into New Delhi…i went back to the same hostel because I had left a book there I wanted to retrieve and there was where I met Bee. She is the most glorious, wonderful, absolutely beautiful, gleeful, loving woman I have ever met and I fell madly in love with her. And then Home went home.
Here I am. Home. Before I had left I spoke with an old friend and secured a dishwashing job at Gino’s Italian Ristorante. Seems very unglamorous (is this a word?) and something people will generally judge as “I would hate doing that” before doing it. But I am working with some very old friends from back in high school and oh my gosh I love it. I have brought such an amazing light and energy to the place and when I really work hard at fostering this energy it creates such an amazing difference. I do not want to say it is me doing all of these things…it is definitely everybody…but I can see in alot of their eyes, especially when stressed on a busy night, to see me doing what is “the worst job of all” with a smile and a light in my eye brings peace to them. At least I think. I have noticed Gino seems to want to increase traffic in his restaurant during his slow days, as I’m sure all owners do, so I offered to help him with internet marketing. On tuesday I meet with the restaurant manager to run over some things. I don’t know if they will be ready for my suggestions because it will be an increase of 300% in acitivty put in and then activity recieved out. But those who cant stand out will wash out. Ah! Also the Art Tribe gathering is tomorrow at Xanadu’s! Please come out and support Tori Ross! It would mean the world to her and I and everyone supporting her! I will be giving my morning tomorrow and if I can make sure Gino’s is in working order I will perhaps be there for the actual event and see you lovelies there 🙂 hehe I also need alot of pallets if anyone can help with that ❤ 😀
The future. So bright! This opportunity is something you should look into as well if you area free of restraints or can find some time to get away. Canada is in desperate need of workers! They need people to come pick vegetables and are paying quite well for it for they fear they will have to leave crops rotting in the field. Some are hourly between 12-17$/hr but alot more are paying by weight of what’s picked and you can make very good money with this. So Bee is already working on a farm in Ontario, CA and I am to join her in July. We have our own place to live and it is free of charge and we will be making money working on this farm and picking vegetables. From there I imagine we come back for trim season and so it begins again 😉 But you never really know. The world is so wide open I simply open the doors and then step through the one I feel most attracted to. A beauitful way to live, yes? Ah I love you guys and will try to keep in touch more often with what is happening! Au revoir!
I have officially said goodbye to the hippie trap that is hampi. Haha Bobby! I found another one of your hippie traps 😉 there was a certain peace where I did not feel anything had to be done. My inner dialogue was quieted and I just felt wooooshahh. I just finished a 35 hour train ride from Guntakan to New delhi and now I am dead center in the hecticness of Delhi. Its a place most travelers say to avoid but we handled it nicely. We met the right people and got the right direction and we are en route to dharamshala tomorrow. Perhaps the Dalai Llama and I will cross paths. I do not feel as if I would have anything to say though. Haha. Perhaps I could run across him my book idea (do you remember Jibbles? 😉 ).
but ya man Hampi was beautiful… now I feel the mountains calling my name. The mountains are in my blood, man, there’s no escaping it. It will be a good finish to my journey. I decided to skip all the tourism in Rhajastan as I dont feel the need for anymore hustle and bustle or temples or camels or having color thrown on me amidst drunkards. I’m more of a go and stay then a go and go you know? And I appreciate my calm and aim to nurture it and watch it flourish. I feel the mountains will help pull even more new music out of me. Although at this point I’m a bit overwhelmed at everything thats flowing through me! This trip has been something beautiful, man. People asked me “Why are you going to India?” I always had trouble answering. My answer came up to be something along the lines of “When I go I will find something that is missing from me although I wont realize I have found it until after I left.” What I’ve realized through my travels and personal reflection of being here is that I already had everything I needed. I already am everything I need to be (thank you Chiqui <3) I don’t need anything special or a special experience to grow more exponentially than this. These realizations are a dime a dozen on a warriors quest for freedom and rarely remembered so it matters not. I believe that is what she was trying to say. I am present. The way things work is way too incredible. I’ve cleared most all distractions of my life and many have cleared themselves for me. I have clear purpose and strong intent and proper motivs and the energy of a child and gaining knowledge at an incredible rate. I will admit I am excited for the few months I will be spending in America. I do not feel entrapped to “Boise” any longer. I feel the ability to utilize America for what it is to me, a money game, and I have my key to the world to go to where I need to be to fulfill what I believe needs to be done. I have a call to herbalism as I’ve had for four years particularly through the medicinal plants of the shamans. I couldn’t understand why I had been dying to go to Peru for 4 years and now that I leave I come to india. I had nothing here I really wanted to see. I wasn’t even excited to come! But nobody comes to India for their first travel and through doing that I have met many weathered travelers and I now have all the resources I need to go the direction I want and I feel empowered to be able to achieve every goal I have. It’s like coming to India I have jumped through a portal and skipped years of work and aimless wandering. “Not all who wander are lost….but I was. And some still are. And that’s ok.” My purpose and goals are clear. I wouldn’t call them desires. I desire to sit in one spot and play guitar forever. that is the truth, but that is selfish. I must do something in this world more than that. Some may ask why? I do not know, I believe there is an exchange required for your desires. I believe I need land of my own to be able to create a community that is strong in the things I believe need to have more presence in this world, my green bubble. Natural farming to heal our earth, yoga, meditation, medicinal herbalism, physical growth, mental and spiritual growth, strong sense of community and art and music, man. Abundance! What do you desire to acquire? It is what comes to me when I empty my mind. It repeats itself over and over and over. I see myself adorned in feathers and beads in a jungle working in a bowl with plants of medicinal properties. Some call this fantasy, I name it calling. And so that will be my very next steps after India…for now I will sit in the mountains and play guitar. But as always that time will end. And I am prepared for that. I have developed a plan and am operating on that plan. My aura of manifestation has grown large. There’s a certain utilization of time where you can and will create your future if you know what you’re end point is. As I continue to reverse engineer from my 5 year point I see things getting stronger day to day. As I tell people what I am doing I see the belief in their eyes reflecting back at me. Some even comment on it. I wait as the rest of the world manifests my dreams. Ill end with a quote from Will Smith:
“Once I’ve decided it, it’s done. That’s it. No question. Now I’m just waitin for the rest of ya’ll to catch up.”
I read something the other day “Hampi is a place where if you’re not careful a few days can easily turn into weeks.” I laughed as I was already at the point where days had turned into weeks. I’ve been learning so much, guys! The world is really wide open, man. I feel elated, wide open…free, man. I don’t see any end in sight, in fact my plans are naturally coming into fruition. The temporary aspect of travelling…temporary friends that last forever…temporary connections…fast pace…move when you want..be where you want..with who you want…when you want. The world we live in puts a lot of fear into us. Makes us feel like we can’t do it or we’ll lose everything if we don’t hold on to it for dear life. I just let go of everything and let my cup empty. and man I had some sour milk in it before I was holding on for dear life but now its something like Holy water. Aghh I can’t find words to express such the way it is. Ive learned so much of where to go to make money and where to be to complete my goals. Like clockwork.
As I go along I find new ways to make money, my creative energy is blown up out of proportion and the encouragement I find to fall in love with my music and myself is out of this world. The things people say, the way they feel in their eyes. Its so alive, man. People just living from their heart and speaking from it too. If you had to experience anything I’d tell you it’s this. Freedom, man. Every step you take is a step YOU take. Not one that’s expected of you. You go the direction you choose. You be who you want to be. Nobody can tell you how to live, what to get, where to be, or who to love. I used to operate from such an attachment to safety and always being ok for tomorrow that I couldn’t be ok for today. You know what I mean. Now I walk free, man, and Ima just keep walkin.
Soon I will be on a desert riding camels in Jaisalmer, and getting colored in the streets of Pushkar during the Holi festival and trekking into Dharam Shala to play music with the Ganges. Life is beautiful, man.
Edit: Ahh, man I had to pop back in and drop a line about Chris from London. He’s a well put together chap that plays some real smoooooth jazz. We play together and I can feel the streets of London carrying the notes into our world. When we’re done playing he says “That was some great noodlin there man, very well done.” Just read it in a London accent and you get the full experience. Ciao!
I am currently spending time in Hampi, India. Every place you go in India is an entirely new culture. There are commonalities like eating with your hands. You must be careful to just adopt traditions as you hear them though. A local may tell you that its tradition to eat with your hands but conversation is so quick and a conversation between two generally consists of 1 talking and 1 saying “mm. hmm. ah. mm. hmm” and at first I thought it was the way indians talked to each other and then I find myself doing it too so naturally. But if you were to hear to eat with your hands you must know you eat with your right hand. Because you wipe with your left. So you might get some funny looks if you’re just digging into your food.
Goa was a bit much for me. Lots of beaches and psytrance. Here in Hampi I feel much more calm, much more centered. Hampi has a very good energy and of course a bunch of hippies. The creative energy is alive and well. Every sunset we gather on the rocks and play music. I kinda just sit there and halphhazardly whack my guitar because I dont know what I’m doing, but it is so fun! There is a guy playing an instrument called a Sontor (spellcheck!) which is an instrument from Iran. You must look it up, it is so beautiful. Yesterday a new friend, Giom (gee-om) was playing guitar. He’s the first I’ve come across also playing with steel strings. And the sound he gets out of the guitar is immaculate. I fell in love with it. That moment where I found the sound I was looking for!
He taught me a couple gypsy chords that are all weird diminished 9s and other things I dont understand so today I go to the beach with him to play all day and and absorb his energy. Last night I was supposed to leave to Mumbai and travel upwards north because I feel like I was supposed to “see india” but I did not come to India for India. I came to India for music and for now that is here. So here I stay. Much love Brothers and Sisters!
I took my first music lesson ever yesterday with a music teacher named Thomas who is visiting from Germany. There’s new mechanical things for me to work on but the real power is his ability to see how I am as a person, my character, my attitude and posture while im playing. Perfecting and tweaking haha. Anyways, I’ve been more open to playing with people. My friend Chiqui came to India and we have been going around with our guitars and playing music here and there and its really been a blessing. I also met a man named Lonny from Austria where he was playing in a Dosa Cafe and I happened to have my guitar so I sat down with him. He played very simply, was probably still learning, and we just played. It was very powerful. You can work and work and work on it by yourself to the point of frustration and pulling your teeth out and it just never sounds quite good enough. But you get someone else sitting down with you and you can play 2 chords all day long with a smile on your face. Or at least on mine! Refreshing. The letting go of fear and attachment. My friend Chiqui has opened my eyes to some certain character flaws that I had blatantly overlooked, or perhaps ignored. She noticed that I tend to assume what people are thinking and how they are and I tend to project my perception as reality in an arrogant sort of way which diminishes the connection or worth of the other person. I’m not sure I fully understand because I believe if I fully understood everything it would shatter everything I thought I knew. Some quote comes to mind from some philosopher “As soon as you know for sure that you are right, you are wrong.” I came to India believing I knew everything, in a sense haha. I knew I had much to learn but I thought I had a good foundation and strong fundamentals. Chiqui has shown me otherwise. I believe I have been coming from a space that is not true. That is why I spend most of my time alone I suppose…to not face that. She is the first person in a very long time that I’ve gone around with with intention to go here and there and then here and meet here and go do this. I generally don’t plan and if you know me you know I don’t really like to go places with people and feel obligated to spend time with them for whatever duration that may be. It seems rude and I suppose it may be but if I feel I need to go left, why should I compromise and go right to follow the crowd? Anyways, she pointed out that I doubt my own power. I thought I was doubting others, but it’s all a mirror, right? Hopefully the answers will come, but I suppose I have to find the right question first. I will let you know when I find it! Hopefully we can get some life changing epiphanies coming soon but I feel I am going to have to leave Goa. It’s too much tourism. Ah! and I lost my phone. So no more pictures for now 😛 I know my next step to be Gokarna, but for short time. From there to Emachu to spend time in the mountains away from it all. Michael needs some real alone time. Love you!
I have been traveling in India for about 2 weeks and let me tell you…wow. I have grown so much in these 2 weeks and am eternally grateful. The world has been providing as I always knew it would after shedding my fears and doubts that were limiting me. I always relate to a quote by a man of the name John Burroughs that goes “The essentials of life are near at hand and happiness is his who opens his eyes to the beauty that lies before him.” It has been a powerful echoing in my mind for the last 3 years. People have thought I was crazy for the last 7 months now. Every time I take the next step I get “What are you doing?” “Why?” and my all-time favorite “I hope it works out for you.” It did. Very well. And now as I’m here I am asked “What are you doing back home?” Nothing. I am here. I am present. People are surprised that I don’t have a system in place to go back to and start operating. They assume me irresponsible or “lucky”. They don’t fully understand my mindset, and how can I expect them to? The way I live my life now appears, to the outside observer, as a massive gamble. And I suppose at the time of my decisions it is to me too. I have adopted a strong trust in the powers that are greater than me and I will tell you…they are responding. In a deeper, more emotionally, spiritually fulfilling way than I can begin to explain. Yes, India is beautiful. There are pretty beaches, wonderful people, and every knick knack you can think of to buy. But I will be speaking less of the beauties of India in words, more in pictures, and speaking mostly of my growth. I do not believe myself to be right. The only thing I know is that I know nothing. What I do know is that this is working for me and in times of fear or unknowing…I trust. I will end with a story pulled from the book “The Tao of Pooh” –
There were two travellers walking down a path and they come up to a bridge. Upon looking over the bridge into the cascading river they see an elderly man being tossed and turned down the river going down,..down..down. They immediately leap into action and sprint across the bridge to come onto the path to try and find and help the old man. What they see instead is the elderly man walking down the path with a light skip in his step and whistling a tune to the forest. They stop him and ask “How did you not drown to the raging river?!” and he replies “I accommodated myself to the water not the water to me. Without thinking, I allowed myself to be shaped by it. Plunging into the swirl, I came out with a swirl. This is how I survived.”
I felt free again. I was off to go do what I really wanted to do and I was going to get the financial income I needed to make moves. It all began to make sense how everything happened. I held strong, I was rewarded. That is how the world works. As you continue reading you will see this remain true and learn to utilize it. Trimming was a different experience. All we did was work. Good work. I felt calm, at peace, at home. The work was standard – you grabbed nugs and trimmed them to look how they wanted all day long. Obviously, this is not going to give me any sort of epiphany to change my life in and of itself. But then I met Doudi (Doo-dee). And Eric. And Giulia.
Doudi is from France. An extremely likeable fellow who would say “Im Doudi! The guy from San Francisco!” in a very obvious French accent. He thought it was hilarious. So did we. Eric is from Spain and he had a very knowing energy about him but also the spirit of a child! Quite a beautiful combination. Playful as a child, wise as an elder. Giulia is from Germany and what a wonderful girl! The way she speaks will encaptivate you and her playfulness will bring a liveliness to you that you thought you lost. I became close with these three. There was no way not to. I fell in love with the way they are and how they live.
They spoke of India. Not even to me specifically, but to everyone else. And I just kept being around and overhearing it. And they all spoke of it in the same way. They spoke of how beautiful it is, how free that they feel. It bit me. That’s really all I can say. I decided I was going. I had adopted this ideology of “Commit first and figure out the rest later.” Some would say that its naive, but I use it as motivation. So I bought the plane ticket. I remember Doudi telling me of India, after I had decided to go, he said “It’s freedom, man.” and I still get emotional now just typing it. I could see the truth radiate through his eyes into me. That was all it took.
I finished work, sold my truck and went home to prepare for what I believe will be the start of the biggest undertaking of my spiritual journey thus far.