I have officially said goodbye to the hippie trap that is hampi. Haha Bobby! I found another one of your hippie traps 😉 there was a certain peace where I did not feel anything had to be done. My inner dialogue was quieted and I just felt wooooshahh. I just finished a 35 hour train ride from Guntakan to New delhi and now I am dead center in the hecticness of Delhi. Its a place most travelers say to avoid but we handled it nicely. We met the right people and got the right direction and we are en route to dharamshala tomorrow. Perhaps the Dalai Llama and I will cross paths. I do not feel as if I would have anything to say though. Haha. Perhaps I could run across him my book idea (do you remember Jibbles? 😉 ).
but ya man Hampi was beautiful… now I feel the mountains calling my name. The mountains are in my blood, man, there’s no escaping it. It will be a good finish to my journey. I decided to skip all the tourism in Rhajastan as I dont feel the need for anymore hustle and bustle or temples or camels or having color thrown on me amidst drunkards. I’m more of a go and stay then a go and go you know? And I appreciate my calm and aim to nurture it and watch it flourish. I feel the mountains will help pull even more new music out of me. Although at this point I’m a bit overwhelmed at everything thats flowing through me! This trip has been something beautiful, man. People asked me “Why are you going to India?” I always had trouble answering. My answer came up to be something along the lines of “When I go I will find something that is missing from me although I wont realize I have found it until after I left.” What I’ve realized through my travels and personal reflection of being here is that I already had everything I needed. I already am everything I need to be (thank you Chiqui <3) I don’t need anything special or a special experience to grow more exponentially than this. These realizations are a dime a dozen on a warriors quest for freedom and rarely remembered so it matters not. I believe that is what she was trying to say. I am present. The way things work is way too incredible. I’ve cleared most all distractions of my life and many have cleared themselves for me. I have clear purpose and strong intent and proper motivs and the energy of a child and gaining knowledge at an incredible rate. I will admit I am excited for the few months I will be spending in America. I do not feel entrapped to “Boise” any longer. I feel the ability to utilize America for what it is to me, a money game, and I have my key to the world to go to where I need to be to fulfill what I believe needs to be done. I have a call to herbalism as I’ve had for four years particularly through the medicinal plants of the shamans. I couldn’t understand why I had been dying to go to Peru for 4 years and now that I leave I come to india. I had nothing here I really wanted to see. I wasn’t even excited to come! But nobody comes to India for their first travel and through doing that I have met many weathered travelers and I now have all the resources I need to go the direction I want and I feel empowered to be able to achieve every goal I have. It’s like coming to India I have jumped through a portal and skipped years of work and aimless wandering. “Not all who wander are lost….but I was. And some still are. And that’s ok.” My purpose and goals are clear. I wouldn’t call them desires. I desire to sit in one spot and play guitar forever. that is the truth, but that is selfish. I must do something in this world more than that. Some may ask why? I do not know, I believe there is an exchange required for your desires. I believe I need land of my own to be able to create a community that is strong in the things I believe need to have more presence in this world, my green bubble. Natural farming to heal our earth, yoga, meditation, medicinal herbalism, physical growth, mental and spiritual growth, strong sense of community and art and music, man. Abundance! What do you desire to acquire? It is what comes to me when I empty my mind. It repeats itself over and over and over. I see myself adorned in feathers and beads in a jungle working in a bowl with plants of medicinal properties. Some call this fantasy, I name it calling. And so that will be my very next steps after India…for now I will sit in the mountains and play guitar. But as always that time will end. And I am prepared for that. I have developed a plan and am operating on that plan. My aura of manifestation has grown large. There’s a certain utilization of time where you can and will create your future if you know what you’re end point is. As I continue to reverse engineer from my 5 year point I see things getting stronger day to day. As I tell people what I am doing I see the belief in their eyes reflecting back at me. Some even comment on it. I wait as the rest of the world manifests my dreams. Ill end with a quote from Will Smith:
“Once I’ve decided it, it’s done. That’s it. No question. Now I’m just waitin for the rest of ya’ll to catch up.”